Do You Know What Mabuhay Means?

I was looking at my old pictures and suddenly I saw the negatives of our trip in singapore and I dont have the positive copies of it. So, I made some expriement and with some logic (negative + negative = positive) and help from photoshop, i was able to have positive copies of our trip. Even if its grainy and blurred I am still happy with the results.

Going there to Singapore and to represent our country is such an exprience and honor. It also made me realize how lucky I am because I am a Filipino.

Rain: "Do you know what Mabuhay Means?"
Girl from Brunai: "No"
Rain: "It's a praise and it means alot of things...!"
Girl from brunai: "ok"
then she left.

Actaully I don't know how to explain mabuhay is just that,
I just cant think of a good pick up line.

Depression sets in

i have given myself a timeline, to achieve what i want to achieve, and the deadline is kinda near. In a way, I am pressuring myself to do something about it. Yet, circumstances are not my side right now. So, I'm getting depressed.

Another thing that bugs me is getting into relationships. Recently, I've noticed the girls that i am getting involve with are the ones who just broke up with their bf's and end up being together again. I always hope that there will be something but I end up alone. So both career and lovelife is not working on my side. Haay. depressing.

I and myself

In this crowd I will fit in,
I will feel home,
I am myself.

I breathe what they breathe.
I am in unity with them.
Attached.

I'll follow, I'll bow, I surrender.
I will invest myself.
I'll hope to be one...
And now, I get blinded.
I'm drowning with my tears
I am left.

Unattached.
Pain and confusion.
Detached.
I'll close my eyes,
As I walk forward,
On my own.

Random Thoughts of Mine

I can go from blank to nothing.

I speak english but no one understands.
I want to talk gibber but they like Chinese.
I want her she wants him.
I blame myself, who else to blame.
I take risks, I face fear.
I think then I smile.
I listen and i do get tired.
I am confident but I am scared to death.


I want to walk but I need to run.
I shout, they only hear whispers.
I am 24, they say I'm immature.
I am patient but I get irritated.
I will feel anger only for a brief moment.
I think i am alone but I think I am not.


I am not here but you are there.

Happy People

happy torta boyz

house party in our room with the assumptionistas

boracay sand castles with new found friends

with JP, Char and Lyle

@ summer place with April and Theresa

Team Addict Mobile - Water dodgeball Champions

One thing that i notice about boracay is the people. Everyone is happy, everyone is there to enjoy. So no wonder why I cant stop going back there!

Bora Booboo

Yes, I was in boracay last week. Yes, i did enjoy my stay and i do want to come back and be merry again. I remembered JA, my mentor, said: "It's ok to be drunk in boracay since you go there rarely." So, being drunk or merry comes with good memories and memories are captured by the cameras.

Yes, I did bring our old digital camera, (even if it's old, it treasured many memories) with my 2 CF cards, 128 mb and 32 mb. My 128 mb has its history of loosing its memory, so my good friend, Don, told me not to use it. But i have strong faith with my 128 mb, i was persistent to use it.

It was fun, i was able to take tons of pictures, sunset, seascape, girls, us with girls, the 4 of us and myself, even the boracay regency's ass with century egg i captured it. I enjoyed taking photos of boracay.

It was our last day, last lunch in boracay with our new boracay friends, Glysa and Melissa, suddenly, when i'm about to view my photos, it said "no images." what the .....! I lost everything. It is so frustrating. Bad trip to the max!

(me, dick, don, and mel)
One of the 4 photos i have on my 32 mb card just before we left boracay.
too sad.

I got an answer!

I asked for a sign, then He gave it to me.

Amazing!

He really works in very mysterious ways.

Now, I can really move on.

By the way, It's my birthday today.

What a great gift from Him. =)